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I was randomly reading some life stories about love on the internet - you know that university files pages on facebook. I don't know but I found myself checking that out regularly this past few days. Then I got to read this one particular story about a girl who has an ex boyfriend who was very caring to her. When I read about how she detailed their story - like he open car doors for her - I was like "that doesn't exist in normal life..pfff!". Then I came to realization that it does exist. It happened to me. Someone dared to do it for me. 

My Daddy and brother did that for me. My boss did that for me. He did that for me! See the point? It always points to me. I was soo selfish enough to realized all of that lately. I was scared enough to get myself off guarded. Selfish enough not to show him that I sincerely and truly appreciate all his efforts. 

I wish I wasn't that too mean to him before. I would've let him in when he regularly visited the house. I wish I wasn't that awkward to interupt him while he enjoyed talking to my parents. I wish I never let him waited for me several times - but he did. I feel sorry for hurting his ego because I always declined his offer whenever he keeps on insisting that he wanted to treat me - I don't consider it a date so I always wanted to pay my own bills every time we eat outside. I wish I enjoyed the moment when he always ran after the car door just to open it for me. Instead, I showed him an awkwardly annoyed attitude while he showed me his genuine laugh then patted and messed up my hair. Which caught me off guard. 

I always brushed him off but he remained consistent. I somehow entertained him but puts him in my last priority while he puts me on his top. I always shows him my bad sides more than the good but he stayed the way he was to me. I must admit, he somehow collapsed the great wall of china. But it wasn't enough to convince me to cross the line. We both know that he can't lead me  and I can't submit to him (spiritually). I wouldn't want to cheapen my worth for an unsure relationship because I know God is still preparing it for me. I'm not a gambler in love but I have an assurance in God's promises. Not going to compromise what I have prayed for. My first "Yes!" is only reserve for my God's best. 


But heck, why am I even writting this?? Neither I don't know. Maybe for some reasons, I realized that he deserved my honesty. Honesty that he never received from me. Not that I lied to him. But the fear of showing him my happiness whenever we're together because I was afraid he might misinterpret my actions. I really enjoyed his company, to be very honest. But not in a romantic way just like the way he wanted it to be. I admired his transparency. I can say that he's the most unpretentious guy friend I have. All his ka-jologsan and flaws, he's not scared to show me. I should've treated him nicely like how I treat my normal guy friends.

I know napagod ko siya. But I wish him all the happiness. That he may never fall for someone as cruel as me again.





IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED

AMITHI JAEVIN

HI GUYS!! I WOULD LIKE TO INTRODUCE TO YOU ONE OF GOD'S GREATEST BLESSINGS TO OUR FAMILY, MY FIRST NIECE, AMITHI JAEVIN!! God, I never thought I would be so in love with her. Just thinking of her right now makes me want to get off my bed and run to her to the hospital where they're staying. 

My sister-in-law, Ate Maeh, gave birth to our little angel just yesterday, March 16, 2016. To be very honest, I wasn't that super kaduper excited before. Saktong excited lang. I think I'm more excited for my descipler's baby BEFORE, maybe because I often see her more than Ate Maeh and it just couldn't sink in to myself that I'll be a Tita soon. But I pray for Ate Maeh's pregnancy always. My brother even asked for a month vacation to witness this very precious moments in their family. Thank God his boss approved his month leave 'coz he always visits Manila for days. 

Dawn of March 16, I was still in front of my laptop writing my random brain farts on my blog. I couldn't sleep that morning because of blended emotions and blessings God poured me the night after that. So I ended waking up late. My niece is already breathing the same air I breath. My mom wake me up to prepare to go to the hospital. My brother sent us pictures from the operation on family's messenger. I was so excited to open it right after I saw the chatroom name "Baby Morias". My tears were halfway spilling my eyes but I manage to stop it the moment I opened it. I can't explain the feelings. My sisters were congratulating my brother asking details and whatever and I was there, seen-zoning them. I'm the most weirdest among my siblings, I don't usually show them how I feel nor feel excited about something so they just let me be. 

We arrived at the hospital at three in the afternoon and saw my brother outside the room sitting. Guess what's he's doing: Umaatack siya sa COC!haha. We entered the room and and no one there. My brother said Ate Maeh was still in the recovery room and he excitedly invited us to go to down stairs to check out Amithi. So we rushed to the nursery station at the third floor and ask for Baby Morias. Few moments after the nurse opened the curtain window and that's the first time I saw our little angel. We were all smiling and my Mom was soo excited and the nurse went out of the room so we could touch Amithi. My brother wasn't allowed to kiss her yet because he has a sinus that time (consequence of not listening to your wife and mom to drink your vitamins and meds). After my brother told the nurse some instructions, we went back to their room.

Not long after when Ate Maeh was moved from the recovery room. The moment I saw her, I got really really amazed. She manage to overcome everything she's been through during her pregnancy. I think I realized now the saying that you'll love your wife more after she gave birth to your child. Kung ako nga sobrang amazed ko kay Ate after seeing her like that, Kuya ko pa kaya? And this made me feel excited on my future with my GB.haha! She was a bit dizzy from the operation that time but she keeps on talking nonstop! She said she wanted to sit down already and do something. She's a Beyonce's power, I know! 

As we wait for Amithi to moved to our room, Daddy and I went to pick up my pabebe sister at SM Molino. Ugh, I really wanted to witness everything but I have to go. While paying for the dinner we bought, Ate Tina message me on Viber that she visited Amithi at our room with Cerise. They planned to surprise me but they're the one's who were surprised because I wasn't there.haha! Isn't my discipler and disciplee (may word bang ganun? I don't want to call Cerise my disciple tho ambigat ng title) the sweetest!? 

I also had a GLC class that night but that I didn't managed to attend. But if time would allow me, I would probably attend my second to the last class. Sayang tuition! Charot. But no regrets! Amithi is worth more than any of my time.

When we got back, Amithi was already in the room and so as Ate Maeh's family. She already had a bath which was the one I wanted to witness. We had a little picture taking with her one by one but me, I didn't have one. When it was my turn to hold Amithi, I told my brother I don't want to because I can't hold a baby. The truth is, I don't want to have a picture taken because I was so ugly that day. Up until now I haven't held her in my arms. Loser, I know!

Time went fast and Ate Maeh's parents went off. We also had a video call with my sister in Jeddah. She was soo excited she's soo noisy. She was on her duty that night and she works on the NICU station and she's showing us the babies she's taking care of. Namimili siya ng abdul na ipapare kay Amithi. Everything was perfect that moment because of Amithy. We left the hospital at around 10:30 in the evening so Ate Maeh could rest then we went back the next day.

I've got a lot of things to thank God for! Never thought my first niece could bring soo much joy in my heart right now! I feel like she's forever fragile I always want to protect her. Her cry sounds a mozart symphony to my ears. It breaks my heart but it also sends butterflies to me. I can't wait to spoil her! Can't wait to get piss because she's uncontrollable. I can't wait to see her on sunday school singing children songs for Jesus. I just can't wait to do everything with her! 

It also brought me to some realizations, positive and negative. Positive in a way that it excites me to meet my GB and when it is God's time, we'll have our own Amethi. I will make him love me more because of our child. And negative because I feel sorry for the unborn children. It's so upsetting that they had an irresponsible parents who doesn't have the balls (this also goes for women) to give life to them. I actually don't give a shit before when I heard news like this. But my niece made me realize that life is so precious, even when they're still in their mother's womb. For me, these people are the worst! Worst than all of my country's corrupt official! They don't deserve to have a baby after what they did to their child.  I hope this kind of people realize how precious this babies God's gift to us. I pray people would embrace life!

And it also breaks my heart that my brother wouldn't be able to see her for the next few months. I know leaving this time would be the hardest part for him. I've seen my brother grow. He's the worst as we grew together, I must say. I can't even remember a happy moments of our childhood together because I was soo damn scared of him. He's super sungit I can't even look at him in the eye when I was a kid. And I credit God and Ate Maeh for what he is now. Still not used to it but he keeps on encouraging and sharing me things about his faith. And I praise God that I'm not the only one devoted to God in the family. I'm soo proud of my brother even before! He's a smart ass and an atleeth as well during his younger years. He's not the nerd type.He socialize well with people. I know you won't be that long that you'll be away with your family. It also makes me sad that you might plan to stay together in Malaysia as a family. That means Amithi will be away from us too (Just typing this makes my eyes drench in tears. Seriously). But if it's for your family's sake and God's will, anong magagawa ng emotion ko?haha! 

Lord, I dedicate to you my niece.

Please take good care of her always.

I sincerely praise you for the life of Amithi.

She's so precious I know You will always look after her.

Thank you for creating her according to Your likeness.

And from that, You have created a very wonderful baby.

Lord, use me as your instrument of abundant blessing to her.

I pray that you may guide me to be a good Tita to her.

That I may teach her to worship you.

May she grow up to be a person after your own heart.

Lord, You know how much my love for her already.

And I thank You for this joyful feeling You have showerd to our family.

I can't thank you enough, Lord.

Use this child for Your glory.

In Jesus mighty name I pray,

AMEN.

IN ALL THINGS,

GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!

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Blessed Night

Tonight God poured me with an overflowed blessings. I was able to share my faith to a friend, my sister-in-law will be giving birth few hours from now and my friend from the dgroup I'm handling started to work on Technical Ministry in our church! All great news in one night. Praise God! :)

So I was browsing my Facebook feed and saw a friend's post that she's leaving for Dubai already. What a great testimony because 2 months ago, I asked her if there's something I could pray for her and she said she wanted to go to Dubai. And so I prayed for it. Then weeks after we met, she already got her visa and will be leaving this Sunday. I was thinking of her these past few Sundays every time I sit during our worship service. God always pops her into my mind and burdening me to talk to her and share about Jesus. I always plan to meet her before but the that never happened. I guess God allowed that so the things happened earlier may boost my faith in God.

I sent her a message on messenger and asked when she's leaving. I was shocked when it's on Sunday so I asked her if I can meet her before she leaves. She said she's in Pangasinan right now and will go straight to the airport on Sunday. There'll be no time for me to see her and share the Gospel to her. I prayed to God and asked Him guidance so I can share it to her on messenger. Thank God she allowed me to share things I know about Jesus. At first, she was confused. So I called her and repeated some of the things I said to her on messenger. I praise God because she has a seeking heart for God. 

She also asked me questions like "Why does God allows suffering to those people who get close to Him?", and that question frightened her to come closer to God. That question also startled me, I became dumb. I forgot how to answer questions such so I shouted in my head "Lord!". Then without thinking, words came out of my mouth.  (Jeremiah 1:9 "Then the Lord reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, 'I have put my words in your mouth'". One of my favorite verse) God don't send trials to His people, it's satan who delivers it. People are naturally enemy of God. Dalawa lang yan eh, you're a believer of Him or not (Reference: Romans 5:10 "For if, while we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!"). If you don't have a personal relationship with Him, you're His enemy. And if you're an enemy, you're an ally of His enemy, satan. Satan wouldn't mind you if you're on his side. In fact, he sends you more leisure in life that could distract you to have a personal relationship with God and that's how he deceives us. By sending blessings that we thought from God but in fact, it's not. So to answer her question, satan sends trials to people who tries to get closer to God so he could distract that person to walk towards God. He wouldn't mind sending pains and suffering to people who's on his side, right? Just look at how lucky our corrupt officials, they've got all the convenience in life and satan doesn't bother to send them problems, well in fact he helps them more. They seemed unworried with their lives here but it's the everlasting life with God we should be after. 

There'll be a sub question after that (but she didn't asked me that, just in case you ask), why does God allow satan to send people sufferings. Simple, to reveal His glory to us. So that we may depend on Him only. People doesn't naturally seek God. We only look at God when we are in trouble. But when we're in times that we know we can handle ourselves, we don't seek His protection. He wants us to increase the endurance of our faith. He wants to tell us "I am here, my child. I got your back." So that when the storm ended, we can say "Wow Lord! We've endured the pain!". It's all for His glory!

Back to the story.. 

After all our discussions, I made sure she understands the gift of salvation Jesus is offering. So I asked her if she wanted to accept Jesus as her Lord and Savior, praise God she said yes! So we prayed over the phone. I felt relieved after that. She said she was never been this close to God until she experienced her lowest point. Her testimony is very inspiring. I've seen her at her lowest and joyful that God has brought her up from that. And more blessed that she saw God from all the pains she's been through. And now she's trying to win herself back with faith in God. 

I felt really blessed after the conversation with her. I never thought that I could win a soul for God over the phone! I mean, I only trusted His Words that has a life and then there!! Kumbaga 'Bahala ka na, Lord, kung mag work at maintindihan niya sa chat! All was just by faith. God continually amazed me on how He works. His life giving Words worked in any platforms and in any persons. 'coz to tell you honestly, mahina pumick up 'tong kaibigan kong 'to haha! (Don't get me wrong guys, ganun lang talaga yung relationship namin. baka mastumble kayo nagsheshare ako ng bible tapos judgemental naman pala ako sa friend ko.haha!). I pray that God may bless me strength and patience to  continually share everything I know about God :)

Unang good news pa lang yan! The next one was that I talked to my friend, Kim, who happened to be on the dgroup I'm handling and she said she already started volunteering on Tech Ministry in our church. I'm so glad God placed a desire in her heart. She's actually from the church I attended before CCF and she wasn't attending regular sundays na so I asked her if she wants to join our dgroup and praise God she continued and regularly attending sunday services even by herself! Yey! I told her to let Pastor Edwin, Phillien's pastor, know if she wants to go full time in CCF. Rap also started to be part of Next Gen (kids ministry) in our church. I praise God that He's using my friends to work for His glory. I mean, we're all new to CCF and there's God putting us a place into a big church where we can grow and serve Him with believers who's love for Him is on fire, we never imagine. Ang bilis lang ng transition ni Lord! Glad that just like me, they're meeting new friends in CCF :)

And last but not the least, we will be expecting a new member of our family in few hours!! Yey!! I've been dreaming to be a legit Tita!! I do consider MK as my pamangkin tho, but this time it's in the blood! They're expecting it to be a normal delivery but the baby is "Suhi" so Ate Maeh will be needing to undergo CS. She will be admitted at DCMC where my discipler is a major stock holder. At first I was hesitant to ask for a discount so I messaged our dgroup in viber and ask to pray for my sister-in-law. God really blessed me a prayerful group they said they'll include it in their prayers. Then I told Ate Tina that she'll be admitted in their hospital. Haaay God is so great she said she'll give us chairman's discount! God what did I deserve to have a discipler like her. So I called my brother to ask for details so I can forward it to Ate. 

Haay grabe God is sooo great talaga! I can't even put into words how awesome He is and more than excited how much more He will reveal His glory to me for the rest of my life!

IN ALL THINGS,

GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!

Hi! Just want to bless your day with this cutie photobomber, Pao-Pao!

He's Kuya Pao's (our dgroup photo shoot photographer) son, by the way.

Damn I can literally stare at this kid 24/7!

IN ALL THINGS,

GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!

BAG-YO

(Day 2)

Our day (or should I say, my day) starts late in the morning (Don't judge me, I slept at 2am I think.haha!). I planned to wake up early but my body didn't allow me. But hey, I'm not the last one to wake up that morning naman!ahah. It was a sweet morning for me as I usually do my morning errands. Grabbed my phone to check if I have emails from work. Then go back to sleep again. I felt disappointed with myself because I actually forgot to pray that morning. Pfff! 

As I browse my phone and just sat in my bed for a while with the blanket covering my flesh from the colds of Baguio (plus my monstrous morning bare face), I was glad on the things my eyes laid that very moment. Pero sakin nalang yun. All thanks to my phone and internet hihi :) Parang ganito yung feeling oh... 

I think that was the reason why I forgot to pray that morning. I know. Lame excuse! I reflect first of what I just saw for a moment (I actually asked God to guard my feelings that time) then I decided to own that day and get my ass out of bed. I am ready Baguio!

When I went outside of our room, breakfast was already served courtesy of Kim! We all gathered at the dining area to pray for the food first and then ate our hot dogs. It was a nice and peaceful start for all of us. The usual asarans and stuffs. After breakfast, I prepared my things to use for the whole day then went straight to take a bath - sorry guys for not helping with the dishes! I know it's bad na isumbat but I helped naman with our dishes the last time.haha! Did I also mentioned that there's no electricity that morning. That means walang heater! So I spent couple of minutes para magpakulo ng tubig sa kalan. Not going to take a bath without hot water. The struggle that time was a saga. The moment you stepped on the bathroom floor chills you to death. I swear sobrang OA! 


We were all busy preparing our stuffs while waiting for the others to get done. I decided to complain to my best friend, which is our favorite past time. I love nagging at her while she fights back. That's how we show loved for each other!haha. I love that I can totally blunt her about everything. Like how ugly she puts her make up or how unlucky she is not having a normal booty plus having a curly hair. Things like that. 

While waiting for a jeepney that would take us to the main city of Baguio, for some reason we talked about Katkat again. The green jokes genius, Jason, knocked a joke and that's where Katkat Bugan was formed. Samin nalang kung ano yun. Pang wholesome lang tong blog ko.haha! 


We decided to walk all the way down to God knows where because we're all too bored to wait for a jeepney. But still end up waiting kasi basically dun talaga yung turning point ng jeepneys, few steps away from our transient house. When the jeepney came, we were all shouting not caring about the other passengers as if we owned the vehicle. Then we got off to the same area where we got lost on the first day. Power walk again. We we're looking for RM's suggested cafe. We decided to grab a cab to take us to our destination.

We arrived at Choco Batirol aftetr 20mins of travel via cab. Buti nalang hindi namin pinush hanapin habang naglalakad yung cafe. Our driver was also super hospitable. Baguio cab drivers gained a soft spot in my heart from that trip. Choco Batirol has a great ambiance. It took me a while to realized that it was the restaurant from Halik sa Hangin movie, which was a one of some good Filipino movies I've watched so far. 

After they got our orders we decided to take pictures while waiting for our foods.

Lels 

We spent almost half an hour or more taking pictures. Kung di lang kami pinigilan ng boys, tuloy-tuloy pa sana kami!haha. When we got back to out table, food was already served. Imagine if life will always give you convenience of food served at the table without making an effort.haha! After praying, we all had our own worlds. Can I just say that Choco Batirol serves the best food on earth!! Specially their hot chocolate specialty. I actually had 2 shots of it. As in super OA sa sarap. Even their main dishes. I remember we had Sinigang, Sisig and Sarisiadong Tilapia. Everything served at our table was superb!!! I must say, if your going to have a trip in Baguio, it won't be completed if you won't try Choco Batirol!!


After eating, the hardest part, ambagan time!! Never will a moment that we won't argue on this part. We spend most of the time here than we spend when we eat. Nevertheless, we're all still friends trying to fight the urge not to be on our lowest mood and let it ruin our day.hahaha! The key point is, always pay the earliest with your exact bill whenever you're with your friends if you don't want to pay solely for the service charge! Take this advice seriously, Igi!hahaha

Since we couldn't find any cabs around, we decided to walk to visit Wright Park and have a horse back ride. I think our walk was about an hour. I didn't felt tired that time because it was cold. I mostly complain istant walking and get tired easily but it was fun when you're with your friends (kaplastikan.charot!haha). I posted my long walk story on my snapchat (follow meon 👻: krisajill haha!). 

When we got to the park, Dan, Jason and I went straight to the horses. The others were so KJ they just want to enjoy the walk and the view. I regret wearing short that time because of that manong who helped me stepped into my horse. His arms were moving up to my legs and was trying to move my legs wider. Okay. di naman bastusin yung suot ko. Sadyang sasakay lang ako ng kabayo kaya napunta ako sa awkward na position. I almost wanted to kick him but I remember that I am a christian and Jesus won't do such thing if He was on my position.haha! 

While we were having fun with our horses. The rest of my friends went to The Mansion and here's their pictures from their journey. Boo you guys! You didn't even wait for me para kasama ako sa pictures!haha

I had fun riding Rohan, my horse. Though it was actually my second time riding a horse, the kid in me has been reborn.haha! The three of us just let the horses walk at first. But Dan, the bida bida, kaya niyang patakbuhin yung kabayo niya. So Jason and I left with our horses walking. We can't event made them walk fast. Jason forgot to ask his horse's name so he called him "Bugan". I forgot what Dan named his horse.

We went to catch our other friends at The Mansion. We had to struggle all the way up this stairs to get to the top and while we're almost up Jason, the gunk one, ran before us and farted in front of us! What a disgusting creature!!!!

Confidently beautiful with a broken heart.lol

While we're on our way to our friends and taking pictures, there's these kids on the streets who asked to take pictures with us. We were hesitant at first coz were just nobodies traveling in Baguio and then there's these kids who anticipates for a picture with us so we humbly complied. LOL

To the kids on this photo, you guys are awesome! Go study hard and make your parents proud! (What am I saying?)


After we met our friends, we took pictures and decided to go back to our transient house to prepare to go home. We went back to Mine's View park again to buy some pasalubongs again. Then went back to the place where we stayed. We rest for a while then checked out at 6pm. Before leaving the area, there's this store who sells dynamite and we decided to buy while we were waiting for a jeepney. Luckily, my order was the last to serve so I ended up rushing the Manang while inaatat ako ng mga friends ko to get faster. In the end, I only ate one piece of what I bought and they all ate the rest. Galeng!!

On the jeepney trip, we kept on bugging each other again. Complains. Complains. Complains. Then we got off the main city again and walk to look for this famous restaurant in Baguio. We manage to find The Ruins naman, but only me, Rm and Berna ended up eating there. It was a sumptuous restaurant. Others decided to eat at Mcdo nearby. Kung hindi lang nakakahiya umupo at umalis ng table namin, sasama ako sakanila mag Mcdo eh. I just ordered a Mango smoothie coz they served mostly veggies and I don't feel like eating that time. Then Igi went back to the restaurant coz he said he's going to help Rm with her things. Pagentleman!haha.

We decided to meet at the bus station coz we're running out of time. We started eating quarter to 6:45pm and our bus was scheduled to leave at 7:30pm. When we got there, we get in the bus and find our comfortable seats. I was sitting beside Kim again but she's in the window side this time. So I thought of saving the seat at the back of the driver still undecided which seat to choose. On the first few hours of the trip I was sitting beside Kim but it was very uncomfortable sitting on the isle so I sat beside Dan where I saved my seat earlier. I'm selfish I know!hahaha. 

Travel back home was a bit short compared sa papunta but I'm glad it went that way. I don't have energy narin to anticipate more travel time coz my friends were  all sleeping. We arrived in Manila at around 5am and rode a cab back to Cavite.

So that was my first trip in the city of pines! Glad I got to travel again with my friends coz we barely see each other na. It was exciting not frantically going from point to point. You ask the locals where's this particular place then you walk and walk and walk. I actually like a travel like that. You discover places on your own. Plus the never ending argue and blaming with your friends which way you will go!haha

Thank you Jesus for an awesome experience and a great creation to see! Looking forward for more trips together!!


IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!