Facing the Impossible

Earlier this day, my dgroup leader, Ate Tina, asked me if I could lead our dgroup this coming friday. it took me hours to reply to her because I'm always afraid to facilitate on my core dgroup. I feel that I'm too young for them to listen to me. I don't have enough knowledge for them to be blessed by my lead. I can't even organized my words when I speak. Ever since I got serious about my personal relationship to God, this is my number one fear. To share Him to others. I was thinking that maybe I should say to Ate Tina that I have other appointments that day so I could skip the responsibility. But my heart is speaking to me that I should submit to my leader. That God blessed me enough specially this week and there's no excuse for me to run away from the responsibility God is equiping me. None at all.

At first, I texted Ate Tina that me and my friends is scheduled to have our dgroup that same day. She said, it's ok she'll just reschedule me the next week after. God blessed me to have the best and most patient dgroup leader in the whole world! But I told her that we can reschedule our dgroup on sunday so I coul attend and lead on friday. Before that, I asked God what should I do with the conflict schedule. Should I submit to my leader and facilitate my core group or be accountable to my friends dgroup? I just realized now as I type this that I forgot to listen and wait for God's answer. I chose to submit to my leader without confriming it to God. Sorry Lord!

So there, as I read my devotion tonight. It's about "Facing the Impossible". I just feel that sobrang sakto siya sa situation and that God is telling me that have no fear. Just like God promised Jerimiah when he doubted his youthfulness and speaking abilities in Jerimiah 1:6-9, He will put His words into my mouth. I shall not fear!

Kung ako lang, it's very impossible to speak with different people specially when they're older than me. Reporting pa nga lang sa school umaabsent ako pag may nakatoka saking report. I really hate public speaking! But God has a promise. And He never breaks His promise! Kung ako lang, I always doubt my capabilities. I may look confident with my friends, but I'm a loser deep inside. But God changes people's heart. Just like how He

Happy Birthday Mi Loves!

Warning! This blog post is purely kalandian  and vanity plus slightly annoying!haha

Today is Mi Love, Choi Siwon's 29th birthday! Let me introduce you first to the Brad Pit of Asia Pacific. I'm going to invest soo much feelings and emotions on this post, okay. I already warned you!haha

I would love to see him like this every moring!haha

Hey yo!! See!! Picture pa lang yan. Pano pa pag nakilala niyo siya and kung gano yung faith niya kay Jesus! OMG!!! (alright, I'm being OA nanaman as if I know him personally.haha!) I so love him I even named our car "Mr. Choi"!haha

Okay, I may be jologs but, YES! I love this Super Junior hottie!! I become an ELF since I knew him. I can't believe I'm saying this! At first I just knew him by name. But since my friend, Dawn, told me that he comes from a wealthy family (I don't know, I'm always attracted with richkid guys!haha), he got my attention. By the time I knew the he is a devoted Christian, OMG! I told God that he's The One. Lol no! 'fcourse only God can tell me who's The One. But in my heart, he is!!haha

He's not just a Christian but a fruitful Christian, which is one of my non-negotiable qualities on my God's Best's list. I remember searching him on the internet, I saw a video of him performing Christian songs for his solo performance every Super Shows (Super Juniors concert tours)! Imagine, sinong lalaki ang pipili ng worship song para iperform sa malaking crowd. To think that it's not even his own concert. Everyone from the audience might find it weird, right? But he's a man with faith. He sang sincerely and wholeheartedly while kneeling to God in front of their millions of fans. And that's what makes him perfect for me!ahaha.