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Wednesday, May 24, 2017


RANDOM FARTS


Just a little bit of an update with life. I noticed that I haven't wrote any sensful entry in a long while. I also checked my drafts and I have bunch of writings haven't published yet. I'll published it pag sinipag ako. I got lazy posting here knowing that there is a regular viewer here which I never wanted for people to discover this blog - specially those who I know personally. And yes, I can see you! And I think I know who you are. You don't mess with a lady who has beyond average stalking skills! So please leave this page and never come back! Hahaha. (I'm serious)


So there. Life's been boring today. We don't have any show at work yet. Even for Asia. So all I do is to post relevant contents on our social media accounts. Ugh, I miss work. Real work! I don't want to get paid like this. But praise God my boss is so gracious and genereous with me. I don't know what's keeping him busy right now. But I'm really really bored! Last time we met he told me we'll be having our office in June or July. He's just fixing some stuffs for the office. I wonder if he'll hire more people for the office. I can't imagine myself alone in the office when Peds is out of the country which he is most of the time. I don't know din if we needed more hands because we worked for 2 years with just me and him and Kuya Joel (his driver) in the company. Oh well, wherever God leads us! I just pray we get this project we've plan to bring in Manila. It's gonna be huge! And by the way, Pedsy's becoming like a celebrity now. Hahaha! Since Rachel, her sister, won Miss U Ph, I've been seeing him on tv.haha! She also worked for the company as our artists' RM. So I guess I won't see her more often na. But I'm super happy for her. I prayed and voted for her! Very kind and humble gal!


I also went to Boracay with my friends few weeks ago. Mejo sad lang 'coz I didn't get the chance to visit our ancestral house in Numancia (which is 2hrs travel from boracay) and pay a visit at my lolo's grave. Next week will be his 2 death anniversary and it sadden me. The trip was fine. Boracay was not as good as I see it whenever we go there when I was a kid. Too much building and crowded. But it doesn't matter. I don't know why some people that. It's a beach with all of its convinience. Or maybe I'm just a person who cannot live without the comfort of the foods and convinience. I mean yung simple island lang and you'll put an extra effort so you could eat or take a shower on a not so sanitized bathroom. Hassle siya for me! Haha. What I didn't like was the travel experience. Nag 2Go kami papunta then RoRo pauwi and some disasters came for us that I want to erase in my memory.hahaha! Before I always wanted the ship ride more than planes. But this experience made me want to never travel with ships anymore. Lol! Not super disaster naman, pero super hassle! Maybe i'll share it on my next entry nalang... or not!haha


Lately I've been thinking of my future. When will I get the courage to apply for abroad. Does God wants me to work out of the country. I love my job here, and I cannot imagine myself doing anything aside from promoting concerts. The joy it gives me whenever I see the fans meet their favorite artists. I feel that I was also part of the reason of their happiness. As of now I really want to focus on my career growth rather than my financial growth. i don't mind seeing my cousins and friends getting successfull abroad as long as I'm growing in my chosen field. But I asked my self until when will this be my mindset. I'm not getting any younger. I desire to give my parents their dream house. I desire for them to travel somewhere they want to. I desire for them not to worry about the household budget anymore. Before man lang ako mag asawa I want them to experience the luxur of life. By God's grace. Only by God' grace will my desire to happen.


Our family now is pretty steady. May ganun ba? Haha! We don't video called with Amithi often na. But Ate Maeh regularly sends us videos of her new discovered skills.haha! We also planned to treat our parents for their birthday next month. My brother thought of this and siyempre as younger sibs, we ought to submit! Haha. I'm also starting to save na! Like real saving!! Now I limit my self P500 per week nalang! And it's my 3rd week of success, praise God! Kaya ko naman pala. Bakit ngayon lang ako nagsimula? You wouldn't believe how much I wasted my money before! I swear. Please pray for me on this. Sana tuloy tuloy na! 

Spritually, I'm okay. Which is not okay! I have to be more than okay in my spiritual life. I lay-low in the ministry I joined few months ago. I don't know. It's just my weird personality. Nung una naman, super active and productive ko sa FridaySesh. But now, I rarely attend na. Ang dami na kasing volunteers. Don't get me wrong! I praise God for that! Totoo yung "The Lord added to the church daily" na verse. Because weekly, nadadagdagan ng nadadagdagan yung mga volunteers. I don't even know some of them na nga eh. And me as an introvert, pag masyadong madami nang tao I always want to withdraw myself. But friends ko naman silang lahat. I just have this social anxieties thing that I can't overcome!

 I also decided to join one of the ministries in iur church, Rescue Kabataan. The government joined forces with our church to help rescue the youth and help them point their lives to Jesus. Ate Tina texted me last Sunday before I arrived at church if I want to volunteer for the ministry. I honestly don't have a heart for the youth so I couldn't respond to her agad. So I prayed for it during the whole worship service. Sakto yung topic was joining a dgroup and how can we help others. Still no burden for me to volunteer in RK. But I realized that I don't have to a burden for the youth for me to help them. I was tasked by God to do that. And I thought also an opportunity to challenge my self and see how God will work on me in this area which is never my personality. I'm pretty excited as well as nervous because it's a COMMITMENT -which Bro. Renz joked about last Sunday that it's the most feared word for christians. Hahaha!

I'm also asking God for discernment about this certain something that I prayed for a long time. I'll make kwento if nacofirm na. Pero it may take a long while, or maybe just a little while. In God's timetable. I don't wanna rush God, but sometimes (most of the time) kinukulit ko na si Lord about dun. Buti God has unlimitted patience for all the people, baka di na talaga ibigay sakin ni God to haha! But the Lord confirmed it to me several times. I don't know, I feel confident naman that these confirmations are from God but I keep on asking Him. Maybe it's my way of guarding my heart instead of letting God guard it. You just need to relax and enjoy the season, self. 


So there.. didn't expect this to be long. Haba pala ng update ko. short pa yan!hahaha. Hopefully sipagin ako ipublish yung mga nasa drafts ko. See ya! 

Oh no! I hope I won't see ya! Don't come back here again, please. 



IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!




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