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Upcoming B1G Retreat

It's only few days from now 'til our singles retreat. It's going to be my second time attending a retreat and this time it'll be hosted by CCF main. I'm looking forward of the things I will learn from the experience. Last year was my first. I was also a group leader for the attendees and I don't even had an idea of a retreat. I was nervous but praise God I overcome it. When it really comes to Gof's calling, you'll always do things you thought you'd never do. And I praise God for that! :)


This time, hayahay ako! No pressure. I'll just enjoy everything. All though I haven't told my parents that I'll be gone for the weekends. I'm not expecting anything yet. I'm actually worrying of how to pay for the retreat fee 'coz it's a little bit pricey. The more I keep on thinking of ways to save money, the more I stress myself. So I decided to give my financial struggles to God. It's His problem not mine, anyway. He allowed me to attend the retreat, He'll provide for my fees. Okay I sounded arrogant against God here, all I just want to say is I am confident He will provide for me. I guess it's the best part of having a relationship and trust with God, you can always hand Him over your problems and let Him do the works. And He only requires is your surrendered heart. 



I was also thinking of what things to pack. We'll be staying for 3 days there and haven't prepared myself physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually yet. Maybe because of things I have to do for work and gifts that I will ship for Amithitay. I had christimas shopping bonding with Mommy last friday. It was fun and frustratinf (financially). It's always the best feeling to go shopping with your mom, but never when you're the one paying for it. But still fun! And then we had a little coffee time and catch up while we wait for Daddy to pick us from the mall. 


There! Just a little catch up with life. Also busy working for a show in Las Vegas these past few days as my pasrt time projects and steady lang on my regular job. I feel overwhelmed with God. What did I do to deserve jobs like these 😊. All that matter is what what He can do with my life rather than what I can do. Al the praises and the glory to Him alone ☝

See ya when I get back from retreat! I'll be back with a transformed heart for God. Cheeeha!!



IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!

What do you think you're doing here???

RANDOM FARTS:
Surrendered Isaac

Finally I was able to be honest, share and breathe out everything I felt all these years to someone I feel in debt to. Still got a lot of unsaid thoughts, but I think everything is enough. Felt a real relief after that. Thank you for the opportunity, Jesus. 

Let's have a good life, friend!


IN ALL THINGS, 
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!

TO MY 1 CORINTHIANS 13

I don't know what got into me again why I'm writing something about love. So let me address this blog to my God's Best. Maybe the reason is because I watched a video compilations of grooms' reaction the first time they saw their bride on their wedding. 


 I'm 24 now and I still haven't met you yet. I'm not in a rush tho, I still have a lot of goals for my family and myself that I want to accomplish with myself and God.  I just want you to know that I am consistently praying for you! I always tell my friends that I want you to be a pastor. And if it is God's desire for you to be a shepered of men, it'll be extra special. Although I myself know that I don't deserve to be a pastor's wife. I always imagine if you're discipling people now or you're still in the getting to know stage with the Lord. But either way, I pray that I may be a good helper to your walk with the Lord someday.

Whenever something happened to me or I discovered new about the Lord, I always thought of you. I want to share to you how God worked in my life day by day. But I still have to wait for the day that God will make so we can share stories about His works in our lives. But don't worry, you won't miss something in my life because I regularly write letters for you. 

I can't wait for you to meet the special people in my life - my parents, my siblings, my dgroup sisters and most specially Amithi! Sometimes I randomly thought of having a happy date with you and her. We will spoill her and will get scold by my brother and Ate Maeh for giving her things that are not necessary. All my life I have dreamed of this but I could not see your face. I even have plans on how to say yes to you 😊

We will make our own version of Joy and Edric Mendoza, Feliz and JayJay Lucas, Rica and Joseph Bonifacio, and Ate Tina and Kuya Eric. These are some of the people that inspires me with their godly relationships. 

I pray that you will come from a family of believers of Christ. Because you know what scares me? Is that they may misinterpret or judge me that I converted you to other religion when Jesus never even created a religion. But if not, still okay because what will matter is our personal walk with God. We will both show our families how God loves them and so they may know Jesus Christ in a deeper way. Praying that someday, we'll worship the King of kings both with our families. And please don't worry about asking my parents' blessing and approval, worry about my Discipler... she has a very high standards when it comes to christian men. Lol. 

I wouldn't care if you'll be gwapo or not. All I care is your fats!hahaha. I like chubby guys so please don't skip meals! I could not get any fats for myself no matter how much foods (including junks) I intake. But I still hope you're gwapo but not a head-turner gwapo type. A gwapo who doesn't know how gwapo he is type of guy 😍

I know that the love that I will give to you in the future is the overflowing love that I received from God. I can only love and submit to you selflessly because I am loved by the Lord unconditionally.

I met other guys and they laid their intentions but they either fail to impress me nor they just confused my feeling *flips hair.haha!*. And if my feelings for someone confuses me, then I know he's not you. Because God is not the author of confusion, everything that comes from Him gives us peace and assurance in our hearts. 

My friends often told me to give my self a try. Entertain and have a relationship with guys. But don't worry I will never listen to them. By the grace of God, I promise to keep my standards high so I can be a woman you could be proud of someday (mejo low nga lang sa looks!hahaha!). I know  you will be worth the fear and I cannot wait to give you all the love I am saving. I reserve my self and my heart for you - although naunahan ka na ni God sakin haha! Christ is already more than enough for me. But the idea of having you and worshiping God together makes it more special.

I'm already in love with you. I don't know how it became possible but I sincerly am. Maybe we met before, maybe we'll meet again or maybe we haven't met at all. When it's already God's time, He will let us find each other. When we're the right persons. 


Love, your (trying-hard-to-be) Proverbs 31