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GOD WAITS FOR US
We often hear othe poeple say "waiting for God's perfect time", "Maybe it's not yet God's time", "everything in God's time". I surely believe in God's perfect timing but something I realize on that concept, we don't wait on God. God is waiting for us. Let me tell you what...
We have desires in our hearts that we ask from God. Career promotions, relationships with our family, material things, financial breakthrough, and even our God's best. Things like that. But one thing is for sure... God always wants us to give us those. Just like an earthly father who wants to spoil us in every way possible. But of course there'll always be limitations. Since our Heavenly Father is omniscient, He wouldn't give us things that may harms us. But what about the things that won't?
One of my favorite verse said on James 3:4 "You ask and do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, so that you may spend it on your pleasures".
God gives us the things we ask from Him only if our motives and intentions are right and may bring glory to Him. I often share this to my dgroup, everytime I feel like God makes me wait on a certain things, I always check my heart if my motive would make my God glad. Then after I re-align my intentions, my waiting time is over. It's not that I don't want to wait on God okay I admit that I don't have patience for anything. My point is, it's not people who waits on God but it's God who waits on His people to have their hearts changed. We barely recognize our negative intentions on certain things because we are always confident that God always hears us, that we somehow worthy of everything because we worked for it or we are so-called children of God (refer ro John 1:12). That's why it's a must for all christians to regularly check our hearts and motives. Just like how He waited on us to repent and come back to Him, that's the time He can work best on our life. For me that's how God works. He's always the one who sacrifice and adjusts, it's never us! And never will be.
Just like everyone else, I'm also waiting for something I want to accomplish in life. Right now I am asking God for a career breakthrough (financial) and ehem..my God's best. And it's till on process...
There are times that you somehow thought 'where on the part of the earth could he possibly be?' 'Why aren't we meeting yet?' It keeps on bugging me since a lot of my friends are now getting into serious and mature relationship now and here I am sucking every ounce of reality of my own love life. I am not complaining. I am happy being single, really. I don't even understand myself. Whenever I entertain someone romantically and see other singles happy, it convinced me that I don't need to be in a relationship to be happy. But whenever I see happy couples, makes me want to give myself a chance to fall in love. Love is complicated, so am I. Maybe I haven't find that person who would make me realized that being in a relationship wouldn't take away my freedom and independence.
I am used to be a lone wolf. For all my life I depend my happiness in myself, family and to God. Let me tell you my little secret, mabilis ako magsawa sa tao, even sa friends. Pag masyado na tayong madalas magkasama, I want a break and hindi kita kakausapin for no reason to the point na magtatampo ka and think that there's something went wrong. So I'm waiting for someone who will be an exception to that. I, too, am excited how will I be as a girlfriend to someone. Knowing myself, I am the aggressive one. I don't want permission from someone before doing my things (except kay God). I know what I want. I am full of pride and selfish. I often hurt people who shows me affection. But in the future, I am excited to experience loving someone without fear and guarding my heart.
So going back to the topic, maybe God hasn't sending His best yet because I am not the Best for him yet. A lot of women had this misconception of "I want a guy like this and that" but the big question is... do we deserve a guy that we desire? Does our character right now would be an ideal woman our ideal man would want? We often think that we deserve the best, but we aren't even half of being the best. So before asking God why you haven't meet him yet, make sure that you are in love with Jesus first. We can only find our own happiness and satisfaction in the Lord - bonus na lang yung sa tao. Let me do you a math...
1 x 0.5 = 0.5 (incomplete)
0.5 x 0.5 = 0.25 (much lesser)
1 x 1 = 1 (complete)
- One complete person and a incomplete person won't work. This incomplete person might drag down his/her complete partner.
- Two incomplete person is more prone to s failed relationship.
- But a complete person complemented with another complete person would still be whole. So when the one gets weak, the other one may restore him/her up.
My point is, be completely whole in Jesus first! Always remember that we can experience the joy of love because He loved us first! (Refer to 1 John 4:19)
Now, I am trying to work out my personal relationship with the Lord more as well as working out to be the best and a Proverbs 31 to my God's Best. I feel sorry 'coz sometimes I question God about that but then He helped me realized that if ever I meet him now, baka mag break lang kami dahil sa ugali at perception ko. God wants to change our heart after His own heart first before giving us what we desire in life. If He just provide everything to us without the learnings, para saan pa at naging God siya?
I admit I had feelings for certain guys and will be for some reasons but I promise myself, future GB and to God that I will only be commited to my God's Best. Maybe I am not loyal when it comes to my feelings towards the guys I liked - meaning pabago-bago ako ng cruah. Don't judge me, it's normal for girls! - but I am loyal to my commitment. By God's grace that first man would also be the last. What a wonderful feeling to know that what you felt while your with your past special someone would be 10x happier in the future when you meet your God's best. Right feelings, right person. Can't wait for that.
Attract your God's best by being his God's best.
IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!
