ANAGAPESIS

Should I be worried now that I don't feel anything 
after that conversation with you?
Should I be glad that my heart will now stop longing for you? 
Or should I be mad because up to this very moment, 
I still think of why things didn't worked out for us 
by the time I  was still inlove with you.


I used to give malice on every smile and advices you gave me. 
Like a big brother who gives assurance to his little sister.
I used to fall all over again everytime you shove my hair.
I hate it as much as I want it because it makes me feel secured and protected by you.
I used to deprived myself to talk to you first. 
Because everytime I did, 
it was always me who wanted to keep the conversation.

I used to like everything about you. 
Everything.
I used to guard myself from all the guys who laid down their intentions. 
But you were the only exception - though you did not laid yours.
I used to imagine my future with you. 
Worshiping God with you.
I used to think that the love I had for you was an Agape love. 
That regardless of your response, 
I know I will still love you.


I prayed for you.
God knows how much I asked you from Him.
That He may prepare us to complement each other by His grace.


But things went a little bit different now.
Everything that I used to, now becomes I wish I still do. 


IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED

2016 RESOLUTIONS

Uhm.. No! Scratch that word "resolution", it's too massive for me. Let's just put it on a lighter note to sound possible because the word resolution is the polite way to say "go fck your self, you wouldn't change anyway!".

Let me just call it "THINGS TO IMPROVE FOR 2016". Oh! Sounds convincing than the word resolution, diba?

1. First things first. If people wants to get more sleep because of their busy world, I want to be more awake! I should start lessen my sleep if I want to succeed in life.haha!

2. Sleep early so I can get up early (in connection to number 1)

3. Be more active in church in any way possible.

4. Be confident! I think this is the most hardest part. But, anyway...

5. Plan a good life! Save money. Invest on something relevant. You're not getting any younger, Missy! You should know what you want at your age now.

6. Stop procrastinating!

7. Be more intentional with others.

8. Travel even though you're alone.

9. Seek God more. Read the scriptures. Invest more time with the Lord.

10. Stop comparing you life to others. Just stop that. You are much blessed because you have Jesus.

11. Stop grumbling. 

12. Focus on Jesus more. 

13. Don't get distracted by him! He's not what God designed for a GB. You know he can't lead you and you cannot submit to him.

14. Spend more time with family and friends.

15. Stop thinking of "What ifs".

16.  Read books.

17. Get my own self-hosted blog. Finish every blogs I've started. Don't salt it away on your drafts.

18. Learn new things! Don't be a coward to get out of your comfort zone.

19. Produce more Vlogs!

20. Inspire people in every way possible. (Kahit di naman nakakainspire yung boring mong buhay.haha!)

20. Glorify the Lord more this year!



That's it for now. I hope we could improve ourselves this year.




IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!