God created us to be a Leader

I was invited by my discipler, Ate Tina, last Friday, July 17, 2015, for our church's Leaders and Potential Leaders' Team Building at CCT Tagaytay Retreat and Training Center. The activity was for the future plan of the Single's ministry to have a retreat this upcoming November. And it is for the whole CCF South Luzon satellite. I was hesitant to say 'Yes' at first because it is going to be a commitment and God knows I hate commitment and responsibilities. I told Ate Tina na ipagppray ko muna siya but in my mind, I almost wanted to say No. But as I always say, God changes people. And that includes me. 

I remember the verse in Mathew 22:14 "For many are invited, but few are chosen". I realized that it was such an honor to be chosen as one of the delegates on a Leadership Team Building's ministry. I'm not the only one who got invited from our dgroup. But I'm the youngest (on our dgroup, but I'm second to the youngest out of all the delegates. I think.haha!). Who am I to be chosen to be one of the potential leaders? I don't even have the confidence to talk in public. But God is trying to proved to me that He can use me, a small little creature, for His glory and purposes. There is no reason not to answer God's call. 

CCF Cavite Singles Ministry

And so I said 'Yes' to my discipler. We met at the church at around 7 o'clock in the morning. Christian time. Hindi pwede yung attitude ko na palaging late!haha. And so we left CCF at around 730am at naghintayan on our way because may mga kasama pa kaming sumunod. The trip was just pure eating and chatting. We arrived at CCT Tagaytay at around 8:30 in the morning. The first time I laid my eyes at the venue, I praised God! Such a wonderful view! I wish I could share with you my memories para nakita niyo din kung gano kaganda yung creation ni God. Sorry I was too lazy to take  a picture of the view.haha! 

CCT Tagaytay Panoramic View
(Loser Shot)

It was only 1 day activity so we have to compress everything. We started our activity with a prayer and worship songs. Grabe! Worship song palang sobrang nabless na ko. Kuddos to the worship team! We introduced ourselves to each other. Then after that Kuya Eric (Leader of Caavite singles' ministry) and Ate Abby (Pastor Fred's sister and ever CCF Cavite's bubbly and bibo host) briefed us our activity for the whole day. Then we had breakfast at 9:30 as far as I remember. We had a struggle heading to the dinning area of the place kasi bundok siya. Nasa upper part yung dinning area, nasa baba naman yung Pabilyon where we stayed for our activities. 

That little structure there was the Pabilyon where we stayed. We had to go all the way up during eating time.

We went back to the Pabilyon at 10am. Pastor Fred, CCF Imus' head pastor, told us that he invited himself to have a talk on our retreat.haha! I love listening to him cause he's like a kid and always crack jokes during his  preachings. So his talk started. He discussed about ways of leadership that can help us on our future discipleship walk. Super nablessed and narenew yung heart ko for discipleship. He said that we should always be intentional and focus the leading to Jesus, not on yourself. To focus on our end/goal.  I thought I was doing my job smooth and safely, but God humbled me. Now, after I heard his message, I regained a joyful heart to Honor God and be a Christ committed follower who will make a Christ committed followers (copied from CCF Mission.haha!).

Pastor Fred during his leadership talk

54 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

1. I am a proud believer of Christ. LOUD AND PROUD!

2. I'm an introvert but I don't think my friends would agree to that. Ha!

3. I am a very very private person. I don't open up with things easily (unless you're my bestfriend).

4. I don't have a boyfriend since birth.

5. It takes me looong time to move on from any hard times and pain I went through. 

6. I am obsessed grooming my eyebrows.

7. I love spicy foods!

8. I have no confidence with myself. Seriously.

9. I laugh at my own jokes. I know. It's borderline retarded.

10. If you tell me things that I would definitely do, there's a 100% chance that I won't do it.

11. I am secretly writing love letters for my future GB (God's Best) randomly. Just so he knows what's up with my life during the time we haven't meet yet. I plan to give it to him days before our wedding.

12. I'm the most insecure person in the planet. 

13. I am very awkward person. I often regret things I say to people I'm not close with. Labo!

14. I am always hungry. I hate it.

15. I am the worst person to like/love (romantically).

16. I always hit people whenever I want to express myself.

17. I can't express myself. That's why I hit people.

18. I hate surprises. It just feels like people are conniving against my back. Psycho. Yes.

19. My family is the only people that can make me cry (unless it's something serious).

20. If I ignore you, it's either I really like you or I don't want to give you false hopes (ganda eh) or basically I just don't like you.

21. 57. I love writing and reading blogs. I write random things and what I feel almost everyday. I have lots of pending blogs that I don't ever intend to published yet because I'm afraid someone will happen to discover my haven and will know what I truly feels. I know it's lame that I have a blog but I don't want people to see it. Bakit ba? Journal/Diary doesn't work for me!haha (If you happen to read this, please don't let me know that you have read my entries. It will freak me out! Seriously).

22. I hate cucumbers! Just thinking of it's smell makes me want to throw up.

23. I trust God always but I have a grumbling heart.

24. I am always in denial with my feelings. Always. It usually takes months for me to confirm it.

25. I really hate talking in front of people. My cheeks always shakes. Weird!

26. I have lots of regrets in life. Like being a coward not pursuing Architecture because the course seems really hard and afraid to fail the boards. Not engaging into sports when I was younger. Didn't enroll on music or swimminlesson every summer of elementary days when Daddy keeps on insisting me to do.

27. I stalk random people. I can actually dig out things from their past. I'm an ably person when it comes to that, I must say.

28. I don't get jealous easily.

29. I'm always late. But I'm working with my punctuality. They say early persons most likely succeed in life. I must succeed!haha

30. I can't save money! All the wages I earned since I started working went to 15% shopping/gala, 10% gas and 75% food.

31. Throwing up is the worst thing ever!

32. I am already in love with my GB kahit di ko pa siya nakikilala. Maybe I'm inlove with the imagination of me being with him and doing things I'm planning to do with him in the future.

33. My mind is full of narcistic thoughts.

34. It makes me depressed thinking that I still don't know what to do with my life. It's scares me that I'm already 23 and I don't have specific goals.

35. I love my dgroup family next to my family. I treasure them as much as I treasure my best friends.

36. I am close to being inlove with Leopoldo Catalino Aguinaldo. I don't know if I'm fortunate that he happened to be Daniel's (my boss) friend! He knows I have a crush on him and he always tease me. Ha! Talk about awkwardness.

37. My favorite genres are alternative, indie, jazz and 90's rnb and soul (sadly, this genre this days doesn't have soul. Ha! I rhymed it).

38. I have 3 best friends in life. RM, Nicole and Adong. But I don't think Nicole and Adong doesn't know I consider them as my bestfriend. If you guys happen to see this, yes! You guys are my bffs kahit di niyo ako iconsider na bestfriend hahaha! 

39. I don't eat veggies. Only kangkong.

40. I can last a week not going out of my room.

40. During my childhood, I always say I want to be a scientist like Dexter (of Cartoon Networks' Dexter's Lab) when asked about what I want to become. Buti nalang mabilis magbago isip ko.

41. I always play hard to get (I feel pathetic constructing this.Haha!). Because I don't know how to say yes when guys ask me out. Though I really wanted to go, I just don't know how to say yes. 

42. I can't sleep without a comforter and pillow at the end of my feet, sides, a hotdog pillow and cover on my ears. I sleep with 8 pillows by the way.

43. I'm attracted to guys who loves God more than anything else and are best on their chosen fields. Focus and knows what he wants then pursue it. Confident with himself but not arrogant. 

44. I super love A Walk To Remember. I can recite every line from the movie. Charot! Konti lang.

45. I love rainy season.

46. Guys who are vain is a major turn off for me! Like I said on my previous post, I would truly appreciate it if you don't post selfies of yourselves. 

47. I always roll and blink my eyes (only at home. I don't know) unconsciously. Feeling ko nageexercise siya magisa. Bad habbit, I guess.

48. I am envious with girls who are proud to shout to the world how much their partners inspires them (pero may binabagayan din to, girls. Wag masyadong pabebe. Kung chic ka, nakakainggit ka. Pero kung hindi, nevermind). I always dreamed being in love without controlling or guarding my feelings. Yung pure love lang. I've only experienced that during highschool. That I-can't-fight-this-feeling-anymore feelings.

49. I always nod my both eyebrows (pano yun? basta yung tinataas yung dalawang kilay) at the end of my spiels.

50. My cousin's are the most annoying creatures on earth. But I super love them!

51. I peed during class back in Elementary.haha! Di kasi ako pinayagan mag CR ng teacher namin because we were being punished by not doing our assignments. 

52. I don't fall for big romantic acts. Simple acts attracts me the most. Like remembering the simple things I say or did. Knowing what I like or doesn't like. Protecting me when there's a dangerous dog barking in the streets. Opening car doors. Ordering me a frappe without whip or stuffing fries on my burger becuase he knows I like it. 

53. I don't leave the house without my wrist watch.

54. I can get sick easily. I was born that way. 10x na siguro akong nahohospitalize buong buhay ko approximately. Kidding! Siguro mga 8.

55. I super love Aquaman by Walk the Moon and Brighter Than the Sunshine by Aqualung.

56. I desire to be a Pastor's wife.

58. I have 5 social media accounts (Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat and Ask) and 4 blogging sites (Blogspot, Tumblr, Multiply and a secret blog - only Blogspot and secret blog are active)

. I tend to re-edit my blogs every moment I read it. So most probably I will edit this in the future.

IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!