Hey there, 15 yrs old self!
This was me and my mum exactly 10 years ago during my high school graduation.
I remember clearly I was a very ambitious, outgoing, and confident teenager back in my senior year. I thought I could be anything I want to be if I put my heart in to it. I was dreaming of becoming either a Fligh Attendant, a female comercial Pilot, or an Architect. Then maybe try out a modeling carerr on my spare time. But things changed when I entered college I wasn't prepared of! I thought I knew myself. I discovered that I was an extreme introvert that I never even made friends during college unless they put an effort to be my friend. Out of 3 colleges I went to, I only made friends to 6 people!
I must say, college has taught me so much! I think it was one of the darkest face of my life. As Monica of F.R.I.E.N.S. said, "Welcome to the real world! It sucks but your gonna love it." Real world for me started back in college. I got immune to people's rejections so it was easy and comforting for me to be alone at school. Not that people rejected me as a friend, maybe it was me who always think people doesn't want to be friends with an awkward person so I feel like just looking at them, I think they're already rejecting me. I'm a weirdo, I know! But at that early stage of my life I learned that I don't need to please others especially if they're not even relevant to me. Besides, I can get to be home early and bond with my dogs and real freinds from high school. During field trips, I only pay for the fees just to earn grades and then make excuse on the day for not attending. I never tried vices like smoking nor drinking. No offense to people do that, you guys are cool on your own way but it's just not really my thing. And can I just brag that I never cheated nor copied on my exams - as far as my memory leads me. Maybe I did, but you can only count them in one hand. Yes I had boring college life! haha
So much things I've been through for the past 10 years. When you were young, you see yourself doing marvelous things in life in the next few years. You thought you can be a boss of a company managing different kinds of people or start having your own family while still getting ahead of your career. Maybe giving back the luxury of life you desire to give back to your parents. Finally investing for your own house. Travelled to places with the person you love. So and so fort... But then reality hits you, you're just half way of your desired life.
Looking back to my old self, I had so much fears that I tried to hide with my lame excuses. I was scared to invest on important and long term stuffs because I was scared what if God ask my job back, I wouldn't be able to support my finances. I was scared to book a flight because I'm afraid something may came up on that date. Not giving people chances to get to know them because I feel I am the most weird version of myself if I get into a deep feelings - which I admit I cannot help. Looking back I realized, out of all the fears I had in mind, how many of that really happened? I just wasted my time worrying on the things that not even close to happen.
So to my 15 years old self,
You're not aware but life will be hard when you get out your comfort zone. But say what, it will build your character. 10 days from the day you got out of the school you went to for 12 straight years, Jesus will find you and you will have an amazing encounter with Him. And I'm telling ya, that decision will be the best decision you have ever done in you life, young lady! Thank you for receiving Jesus as your Lord and Savior I am where I am today.
God will bring you to the right people who will help you to become closer to Him. If it wasn't for the Lord using these people, you will still be hat awkward and stagnant kid who's so afraid to mature because the responsibilities of adulthood. Don't worry if you're too awkward to make friends in college, you'll gain a lot in church! You wouldn't believe it you will be discipling people for Jesus! Yes, you! All by the grace of God.
8 years from your time, you will have a very charming, intelligent, sweet - but impatient, little niece. You ill be so much in love with her and will never resist her cuteness. She will be the sunshine of the family. Mommy and Daddy will become both adorable and sometimes annoying Lolo and Lolas because of her. Also try to be more intentional to the family at that age, so they may see Jesus in your life. Take god care of Daddy and Moomy. You are the one who will be there most of the time because of singleness.
I hope you will be proud of what you will become 10 years from your time. You think you won't be able to do anything, but guess what... you will! Not even the things you imagined in your career. You will be able to work with great and influential people and be part of a crowd's happiness. You will be part of a big company with only 6 people working together producing huge things around the globe. you will handle and deal with different kinds of people and race. How great is that, self? But it wouldn't be easy to get to where I am now. Bunch of rejections and self doubts will come to you but never believe in the lies of the devil. Just keep your things straight and persevere.
Just to pre-empt you, you wouldn't be having anyone romantically in 10 years. I know you are expecting but don't put too much care about it. God, family, career, and finances ka muna, girl! But don't worry. I did a good job taking care of ourselves. Many have tried but none of them passed. Charot! haha.Oh dear, that leads me to the sense of being 25 and haven't experience a major heartbreak yet! God is preserving you, so stop worrying. By God's grace, you'll hit the jockpot on the first shot! I'm praying for him so better start from your age.
I'm really having a great time with the family, career, life, friends, and my walk with Jesus. You know this season is the best season to serve the Lord. I have the time, tressures, and talent that I won't be able to give 100% when I'll have my own family. God is so gracious to me that I am exactly where He wanted me to be. You may not become a Model nor a FA nor a Pilot nor an Architect. I'm glad God chose the field where He can nurture me and use for His Kingdom.
No remember, 15 years old self. God will never put you to a position so you can be proud and boast all your achievements. You are tere to be a blessing to your family and people you meet on the way. Most specially to give glory to our Creator. Keep working hard for the glory of the Lord. I will do too! So our 35 years old self won't nag at me as I nag at you. Hopefully by that time, may 3 or 4 years old na anak na tayo with GB. lol
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end."
ECCLESIASTES 3:11
IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!
I remember clearly I was a very ambitious, outgoing, and confident teenager back in my senior year. I thought I could be anything I want to be if I put my heart in to it. I was dreaming of becoming either a Fligh Attendant, a female comercial Pilot, or an Architect. Then maybe try out a modeling carerr on my spare time. But things changed when I entered college I wasn't prepared of! I thought I knew myself. I discovered that I was an extreme introvert that I never even made friends during college unless they put an effort to be my friend. Out of 3 colleges I went to, I only made friends to 6 people!
I must say, college has taught me so much! I think it was one of the darkest face of my life. As Monica of F.R.I.E.N.S. said, "Welcome to the real world! It sucks but your gonna love it." Real world for me started back in college. I got immune to people's rejections so it was easy and comforting for me to be alone at school. Not that people rejected me as a friend, maybe it was me who always think people doesn't want to be friends with an awkward person so I feel like just looking at them, I think they're already rejecting me. I'm a weirdo, I know! But at that early stage of my life I learned that I don't need to please others especially if they're not even relevant to me. Besides, I can get to be home early and bond with my dogs and real freinds from high school. During field trips, I only pay for the fees just to earn grades and then make excuse on the day for not attending. I never tried vices like smoking nor drinking. No offense to people do that, you guys are cool on your own way but it's just not really my thing. And can I just brag that I never cheated nor copied on my exams - as far as my memory leads me. Maybe I did, but you can only count them in one hand. Yes I had boring college life! haha
So much things I've been through for the past 10 years. When you were young, you see yourself doing marvelous things in life in the next few years. You thought you can be a boss of a company managing different kinds of people or start having your own family while still getting ahead of your career. Maybe giving back the luxury of life you desire to give back to your parents. Finally investing for your own house. Travelled to places with the person you love. So and so fort... But then reality hits you, you're just half way of your desired life.
Looking back to my old self, I had so much fears that I tried to hide with my lame excuses. I was scared to invest on important and long term stuffs because I was scared what if God ask my job back, I wouldn't be able to support my finances. I was scared to book a flight because I'm afraid something may came up on that date. Not giving people chances to get to know them because I feel I am the most weird version of myself if I get into a deep feelings - which I admit I cannot help. Looking back I realized, out of all the fears I had in mind, how many of that really happened? I just wasted my time worrying on the things that not even close to happen.
So to my 15 years old self,
You're not aware but life will be hard when you get out your comfort zone. But say what, it will build your character. 10 days from the day you got out of the school you went to for 12 straight years, Jesus will find you and you will have an amazing encounter with Him. And I'm telling ya, that decision will be the best decision you have ever done in you life, young lady! Thank you for receiving Jesus as your Lord and Savior I am where I am today.
God will bring you to the right people who will help you to become closer to Him. If it wasn't for the Lord using these people, you will still be hat awkward and stagnant kid who's so afraid to mature because the responsibilities of adulthood. Don't worry if you're too awkward to make friends in college, you'll gain a lot in church! You wouldn't believe it you will be discipling people for Jesus! Yes, you! All by the grace of God.
8 years from your time, you will have a very charming, intelligent, sweet - but impatient, little niece. You ill be so much in love with her and will never resist her cuteness. She will be the sunshine of the family. Mommy and Daddy will become both adorable and sometimes annoying Lolo and Lolas because of her. Also try to be more intentional to the family at that age, so they may see Jesus in your life. Take god care of Daddy and Moomy. You are the one who will be there most of the time because of singleness.
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| there you are taking a photo of them at the senior citizen lane |
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| MLTR 2015 Manila Show |
Just to pre-empt you, you wouldn't be having anyone romantically in 10 years. I know you are expecting but don't put too much care about it. God, family, career, and finances ka muna, girl! But don't worry. I did a good job taking care of ourselves. Many have tried but none of them passed. Charot! haha.
I'm really having a great time with the family, career, life, friends, and my walk with Jesus. You know this season is the best season to serve the Lord. I have the time, tressures, and talent that I won't be able to give 100% when I'll have my own family. God is so gracious to me that I am exactly where He wanted me to be. You may not become a Model nor a FA nor a Pilot nor an Architect. I'm glad God chose the field where He can nurture me and use for His Kingdom.
No remember, 15 years old self. God will never put you to a position so you can be proud and boast all your achievements. You are tere to be a blessing to your family and people you meet on the way. Most specially to give glory to our Creator. Keep working hard for the glory of the Lord. I will do too! So our 35 years old self won't nag at me as I nag at you. Hopefully by that time, may 3 or 4 years old na anak na tayo with GB. lol
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end."
ECCLESIASTES 3:11
IN ALL THINGS,
GOD SHOULD ALWAYS BE GLORIFIED!
