TATATI IS SAD
I wrote this post days before Amithi and Ate Maeh left for Malaysia. I happen to forget to post it because of the time my work demanded me.
Tomorrow, October 15, will be Amithi's flight to be with her Daddy for good and her Tatati is very sad. God, I don't think I will be able to finish this blogpost without shedding a tear! God knows how much I genuinely love my niece. You can obviously see it on my Twitter and Instagram posts (haha!) - but there's so much more love that I feel for Amithitay.
Tomorrow, October 15, will be Amithi's flight to be with her Daddy for good and her Tatati is very sad. God, I don't think I will be able to finish this blogpost without shedding a tear! God knows how much I genuinely love my niece. You can obviously see it on my Twitter and Instagram posts (haha!) - but there's so much more love that I feel for Amithitay.
For the past 6 months she made me praise God even more every time I look at her and added enjoyment in my boring life. I always look after to the future because of her. I even thought of cancelling my plans to work abroad because I wanted to be with her as she grows. The more she gets older day by day, the more we discover things about her and it really made the whole family happy.
I remember last week while I drive them to the hospital for her check up she's being madaldal and she said "Tatati", I was shocked and naluha ako. I felt like she was trying to call me in a malambing tone. I almost cried that moment but I handled my tears well because I don't want to be overdramatic and Ate Maeh's with us that time.
I am a proud Tatati to this kid! I can brag everything about her.haha! Even at her youngest age, she thought me everything about life and spiritual (and even driving gently on the road.lol).
It really hurts me that she's leaving tomorrow. I prayed to God if He can extend their stay here in the country but I can promptly surrender to His "No". All though it really is painful, I believe it's a great opportunity to praise God in times like this. It's very easy for us to praise the Lord when we are happy and comfortable. Now I want to practice praising God in my saddest moment. It's hard, but I think God is teaching me right now that if I can't praise Him with my lame sadness, I wouldn't be able to praise Him at my darkest. What I'm feeling right now is nothing compare to what others are suffering. So I want to choose to be more mature and not wallow into sadness. Perhaps, focusing on God gives me the assurance and relief. I should love God way more than anything else. I never thought that it'll be possible, but by the grace of God, I can now feel it. Not that I'm there already, but God is helping me love Him more than my family or anything important in my life. Everyday, He reveals Himself to me.
It really hurts me that she's leaving tomorrow. I prayed to God if He can extend their stay here in the country but I can promptly surrender to His "No". All though it really is painful, I believe it's a great opportunity to praise God in times like this. It's very easy for us to praise the Lord when we are happy and comfortable. Now I want to practice praising God in my saddest moment. It's hard, but I think God is teaching me right now that if I can't praise Him with my lame sadness, I wouldn't be able to praise Him at my darkest. What I'm feeling right now is nothing compare to what others are suffering. So I want to choose to be more mature and not wallow into sadness. Perhaps, focusing on God gives me the assurance and relief. I should love God way more than anything else. I never thought that it'll be possible, but by the grace of God, I can now feel it. Not that I'm there already, but God is helping me love Him more than my family or anything important in my life. Everyday, He reveals Himself to me.
