NBSB
Had an awesome heart to heart talk with my friends Kim, Joseph and Prince kanina. Isosoli ko lang dapat yung payong na hiniram ko kay Lj, then suddenly napatambay ng hindi namamalayan.Nung una nagaasaran lang kami. Hanggang sa nauwi sa madugong lovestory ng dalawa (Kim and Prince). Then Jenifer and I promised to say something din about our lovelives.
Pagdating sakin, they think deeply kung kanino ako iiinvolve (siyempre ang ganda ko, yun ang ginawa kong term. lol).
Talking about the title NBSB or shall I say No Boyfriend Since Birth. It is a pressure for us to be in this situation. Although I am proud to be one, I just want to share my feelings. lol. It's a mahirap na masarap feeling.
Mahirap, because you always wanted your FIRST to be perfect as you wanted it to be - we're the most hopeless romantic people of all. Importante samin ang FIRSTS! Of course it sound stupid kasi sasabihin niyo na depende yun sa taong makakarelasyon mo. Just remember the first time you fell inlove, diba feeling mo sa umpisa palang gusto maging perfect yung relationship niyo. Ganun din yung nararamdaman ng mga nbsb, ang pinagkaiba lang, sila takot sumugal sa nararamdaman nila kasi nga let's just say na napagiwanan na sila ng experiences pagdating sa love. Yung tipong nasa "Wishing for a fairytale lovestory" stage parin.
For me kasi, I don't want to enter a relationship na alam ko sa umpisa pa lang eh hindi magtatagal. Most definitely, I don't want to experience that sa unang taong mamahalin ko ng sobra. Feeling ko nakakadag-dag sa hotness ko yung pagiging one of this cycle eh. Chos!haha. I heard sa mga guy friends ko na mas gusto nilang maging unang lalaking mamahalin ng mahal nilang babae - yun na yung magandang part ng nbsb. So i'm reserving my heart for that person. And never in my wildest dream I imagined that I could be anybody's girl friend. Pag may nanliligaw kasi dun ko naaapreciate kung gano kasarap maging single. Pag wala naman, saktong saya lang!haha. And that feeling that you don't know how to act with the person you like without looking awkward around him. I don't used to show my affection unless sigurado na ko sa nararamdaman ko. Yucks!haha.
Jenifer and Prince told me that para kong sinaunang tao at tatanda daw akong dalaga. No i'm not! Hindi binigay ni Lord sakin ang ganda ko para masayang at hindi makalat ang lahi namin.haha! Maria Clara na kung Maria Clara, but it's my responsibility to protect my one and only heart. Let's just say we're playing safe. Mas mabuti na yun kesa masaktan ka sa maling UNANG tao. I'm not saying na nagiintay ako ng super perfect na Mr. Right. Yung unang taong lang na pagbubuhusan mo ng totoong pagmamahal na kahit hindi man maging perfect eh alam mong wagas naman. Yung wala kang pagsisisihan. Get's niyo ba ko?? Nakakatakot kasing magkamali sa una palang, specially for my age na never pang nakakaexperience ng mutual feelings.
I am still waiting for that one person that will understand that cowardness that i'm trying to defend. One day i'll find my match. That person na mamahalin mo ng walang kondisyon. But for now, i'm trying to be the perfect girl for that perfect man that God will bless me. He just somewhere out there. We never know, isa din siyang NGSB!?haha. We'll see... Only God knows when will it be :)
Kaya para sa mga lalaking nanliligaw, balak manligaw, at mga nanligaw sa mga babaeng nbsb. Please do understand that those girls are scared to give you their trust. Just give more extra patience for their flaws. Mahirap man kaming intindihin, but Dude, pagnagmahal kami, natutulog ka nalang kinikilig ka pa. Yuck!haha :)
IN ALL THINGS, GOD SHOULD BE GLORIFIED :D
